Ashes

I spread some of Baby Love's ashes in her favorite spot in the yard, what we called her "hole". The far end of the yard where she always ended up and very much liked to be. It was sunset and the field looked gold, this was her favorite time of day. She always looked like an angel prancing about in the light of the sunset.

By Request, Baby Love in all her glory!

Baby Love

I have been thinking about this all morning and am not sure what to say. Baby Love passed away this morning. She starting having some serious issues around 4am and by dawn we were off to the vet. It was bad, and I had to make the decision to stop it. I felt it was the only way. I spoke with the neurologist this morning and she agreed. If there had been any hope I would have done anything to save her. I know you all have followed her story for sometime and your thoughts, prayers and donations for surgery have been a blessing. She has meant so much to me. She and I were joined at the hip from the age of 4 weeks so starting over will be hard. She is in every part of the house and yard. I have about a million photos and videos of her. I think the hardest thing will be de programing myself off the routines and scheudles we had. My favorite memories are laughing and cheering her on as she jumped an played in the yard. She loved to be held like a baby and we cuddled almost every night. She loved music, I have a wonderful memory to share with you. One night my husband came home to hear Salsa music blarring in the house and me yelling. In coming in the door her thought "What the heck". What he found was Baby Love and I in the kitchen dancing to the music, she was jumping around and so was I as I cheered her on. I know she felt a lot of love and security, I just wish these last few days were not so much about pills and me being afraid to touch her and more about cuddles and fun in the yard. I have thought all morning about this and have made 2 decisions. One is that I am going to spread some of her ashes at her favorite places in the yard and the rest will go in a beautiful pewter urn. Second, I plan to continue the blog in her name but about my other dogs, her sisters. They were always so good to her and I am sure you guys will love to see and read about them.

To Baby Love:

You were an inspiration to us all. You were a comic, a fighter and a gentle soul!!

Someone told me once that for all I did for you and other animals that I would get a huge crown of jewels in heaven. But he can keep the stones if I can see you again! In all your glory!

Better

I wanted to walk around and stretch my legs around 10:30pm last night right about the time mom was falling asleep so she got up and followed me around the house until I crashed, as seen in the pic. I moved around a little in the night and was ready for breakfast at 6am. This morning I had a little more patience and a better disposition. I have been eating, drinking well though. Right now I am on the patio, my fav place soaking up the sounds and fresh air now that it is cooler.

Monday

Baby Love came home this afternoon. Here at the house we're all treading lightly as not to disrupt her. She is not happy at all. This time the recovery has been more painful, touching her and moving her is hard. But we are happy she is home and in a few days she will be too. I think these photos say it all. Good news is the worst is over and her pain and disposition get better everyday the vet said, so tomorrow will be a better day for her.

Sunday

Well she won't be able to come until Monday. They feel like she is still in some pain because she is acting out and crying. The staff have been holding her and rubbing her ears but she has been a cranky little handful, and crying. Which is unlike her. In talking to the neurologist today we both felt like she needs another day in care. I am sure part is being away from home and me but some of it seems she is just uncomfotable. So I'll be picking her up after noon tomorrow.

Friday

All is well, BL ate and pottied today. She is sleeping away most of the day and night thanks to the IV pain meds. She is still on track to come home Sunday morning. I asked them to make sure and send some of those great pain meds home that they sent last time. They were mommies little helper. 3 a day helped to keep her out like a light and not fussing to play or walk around. The basics food, water, potty and sleep is what I have in store for her until atleast Tuesday. Thank you all for your kind words and thoughts.